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Well being a new blogger I got it wrong. The last post I hinted on this post, but in the list this blog will be first... anyway... if you actually care to read it all, i suppose it will all make sense.

Yea I'm a big pothead, as society would label me.

I'm functioning one, tho... as I've already mentioned I have 2 jobs right now. Many would argue I haven't really accomplished much I suppose, personally I mean.. But, I have raised children.. the youngest two still teens.. that is time consuming and I'm bipolar ... but aside from much research and all the dreams I hold, professionally not too much. I hope one day in the future to be able to remember right now. About the passions and desire that bubble in me. I truly hope something becomes of it all. And not just because I hope to make a living off it.

But back to my point, so I'm a bad example. Big money will not want me as the front spokes person.. but I'm cool with that. I have never been afraid of hard work and will do anything to ensure all aspects of the post/pre/after ... everything.. is done to the letter. Where I admit i know nothing about movie/tv show production, i know there just has to be much 'leg' work. Thank God I still have two. Yea I'm pretty sure I believe in God.. but I'm also sure He's going to send me to hell. I truly get upset at things that go on around me and try and call him out. Care for us dammit! I mean sure they had the free will to do the unthinkable.. but dropping a VW bettle out of the sky on them is aok. Also I'd like to ask Him where in the heck He came from. Religion is very confusing. Evolution and Big Bangs made even less sense. And with many killing in the name of religion, it's sad.

The smoking helps and hinders writing... I truly am more creative when I'm high but it's not the mood I tend to be in. I enjoy scouring the web for news. I've worked myself into a tizzy over news many times. The world certainly can be a sad lonely place. I love my family and am so grateful for them.